A Dream

If I could make you mine I would
It would not take the time it should
To make you love me and for me to love you
To always have you face to face
To be anywhere, do anything for you

Baby no one could take your place
Any worries just erase
Because I promise you I'll always take your side
Just breathe and know that I'm right here
Erase your sorrow and your fear
I've got a heart big enough for you and I

It would never be too hard
Life would be grand
Let down your guard
I'm here to treat you like a real good woman should
And show you no one can take my place
Let doubt go, see it in my face
That you are king, and I am here to be your queen.

If only it weren't just a dream...

How You Got In

There is rarely a time
You don't cross my mind.
I long to see those eyes
And everything inside.
Not sure how you got in
I tried so hard to keep you out.
But you have a special place with me
Now there is no doubt.
I never saw it coming
Not back then and not right now.
But you are who I think of
I gave up wondering how.

Patricia E. Hackel, Rest In Peace

I can't read through these pages of my days with you
Without feeling the void and there's nothing I can do
I can't bring you back, I can't fill that space
Everytime I think of you I sink into that empty place
Where you are missing and we are here
Without you another day, another month
Soon enough a whole year.

I never did have time to heal
Everything still hurts to feel
Since I left home quickly and came to Iraq
Part of me is still expecting you when I get back
Everytime I have to tell myself that you will not be there
I feel my heart break and I cry until I'm gasping for air.

There will never be another you
Trying to be more like that person is all I can do...

(written: 21 November 2010)

Moments

High hopes
Shadows fall
As day turns night
The hope stands tall
Two lovers
These streets
Hand in hand
Steps match heartbeats
Time heavy as sand

Love like butter
Pour it on
Dance although
There is no song
Arms wrapped
Face to face
Feet move slowly
But hearts race

A glance
A kiss
Passion so heavy
The air is thick

Beautiful moments
In every day
Give them notice
For time won't delay

(written: 12 December 2010)

From Your Eyes

From your eyes
A luminescent glow
Straight to my heart
By now you know
Just where I stand
Heart on my sleeve
I do so hope
It's not a dream
Reading you isn't easy
You're on so many levels
But I know you see me
For who I am
Given the time and space
Where this all began
Somehow it found a place
I desire for it to stand
Nothing is quite set in stone
But I don't want you
Going home alone
You deserve it all
I'm willing to make that call
And yes there's space
Between the dream
Still so much left
That is yet to be seen

Still, from your eyes
A luminescent glow
Straight to my heart
Someday you'll know

(written: date n/a)

Ode To 4 Years

There isn't a bad word I would say about you
You are someone to me who I always knew
Had a purpose in my life and you fulfilled
Doesn't matter we're not together, the love can't be killed.

I used to draw hearts next to your name
My time with you was never a game
Sometimes I get lost in the hurt that you caused
But when I feel with my heart, all hurt is paused.

You always were there for me, thick and thin
And today you still are, a 'thank you' can't begin
To describe the gratitude I have in my heart
You were someone special from the very start.

And love is what I'll always feel for you
Someday it would end, I guess I knew
But now we can continue to build, it never ends
Because deep down we were always the best of friends.

(written: 8 December 2010)

Speak

Just to hear you speak,
Your voice, it's warming.
My heart wants to peak,
With love, it's forming.
I can feel it when I hear you.
You're voice, it's warming.

Kindling a flame that suddenly grew.
It's like an emission of light through a cloudy haze,
Your voice, it's warmth on the coldest days.
Spark a flame and gently blow,
Speak my name to it, speak nice and slow...

Call me so I can hear you speak,
Your voice, it's strong.
You touch my heart, leave me weak.
I can feel it when I long,
For your voice, it's calming and renewing.
Your voice, it's soothing.

(written: date: date n/a)

Let Go

I know what it is in life I need
And I'll make life of these dreams I feed
I spent a long time building this
   A fortress inside
   But I rarely hide
   Anymore anyway
   Life's too short to live that way...

This is who I am, who I'll always be
Everything you see and more, this is me
I spent a long time learning to embrace
   Myself from the inside out
   To embrace hope and let go doubt
   Getting older scared me
   Until I let go and let it be...

I let go the pain, the sorrow, the apathy
So I could fully allow myself to be free
Free to be happy and whole and womanly
And I have come to believe it is far better to be a woman than a girl.

(written: 4 December 2010 & 6 December 2010)

Good Love

Hot cocoa when it's cold out
Warm hands to warm your feet
Good love to warm your heart
So it is free to beat...
As fast as we can make it
Slowing down when we are resting
I am giving and investing
Oh love, don't let me down...
A soul good enough to make you feel young
But traveled enough to make you feel home
No matter where we go
Or when we are apart...
My love will see you through it
Feel my smile in your heart
I'll feed you when you are hungry
And give you all you need...
To see you through the brighter days
And the dark ones, yes indeed
I've got so much to offer
And I'm offering it all to you...
Don't let this one go easy
You've got to see it through
Good love to warm your heart
So let's commence the beat...
In time with mine
Our souls aligned
Good love to see you through
All you've got to be is true...
Just put your hands in mine
Go on look into these eyes
I'm sure you'll find what I find
When I'm looking into you...
Good love to get you through
The best of times and worst
This I can promise you
I'll never be the one to make you hurt...
You've shown me all I need to see
Got everything that makes my heart beat
In any range of beat possible for man
Give me good love, I know you can...
And take all of mine in return
It'll soothe you, it'll make you yearn
For more and more and it is here
Just take my hand and it's yours dear...

(written: date n/a)

Let Me

Watching you walk away
Is not that easy, save me
I just want you to stay
I'm hoping someday maybe

If I could see your face each day
Make you coffee while you crawl out of bed
Like you've never known; love you in every way
Can't seem to get you out of my head

Make you dinner before you rest
And breakfast when you wake
None of your time is spent in jest
I'd do anything for your heart's sake

So let me call you baby, baby
Let me in and let me stay
All worth it in the long run, baby
Make each other smile everyday

So let me call you baby, baby
I'll always take your side
All worth it in the long run, baby
Just to see your smile so wide

(written: date n/a)

Didn't Take Long

My heart flutters at the thought of you
Remembering your hands, strong hands
When I see you I'm lost, what do I do?
Tongue tied with butterflies inside

Reaching out is what I often do
But you make me want to reach within
Feelings didn't take long, they quickly grew
An aching, a longing. My soul, my soul...

My heart, our eyes, your hands, my hips
I could forever attach myself to those lips
And never let go, hang on for good
My heart feels you in ways I doubt it should
But everything tells me to go with you
Feelings didn't take long, they quickly grew

And everything is flashing green
I'm willing to run, to cause a scene
Like sprinting feet just hit the floor
Just to feel your touch some more

Your warm and gentle touch
Turns passionate and aching
I feel the same inside
I am yours for the taking

Hold On

The lights are going down, but give me hope
Shadows falling all around, but give me hope
When doubt creeps in, please give me hope
Because I'll hold on with just a little hope

I know myself now, better than ever before
I know who I am, what I stand for
I believe in these dreams and in the fight
To keep going, to hold on with all my might

I know I am worth more than the lines I've been fed
And I hold on for actions; not what is said
No one but me knows all I have to give
I hold on because I've got one life to live

Witnessing my Grandmother fight until the end
The memory of a woman who never really gave in
I hold on to those many lessons learned
I hold on to living a life I have earned

Watching my parents work to build us a life
A fearless husband, a loving wife
I hold on to memories of struggles and tears
I hold on to admiration for their many years

The love I've felt throughout my life
The pain that's cut and caused much strife
I hold on to everything that I've felt
For those are lessons, the cards I've been dealt

I hold on because I know I'm the one
Who makes my life hard, who makes it fun
I hold on with passion to never let go
To what I desire, what I don't yet even know

(written: 28 November 2010 & 1 December 2010)

Far Better

The second sight was far better than the first
Through your eyes I could see so much you never had to say
But when you speak and say my name, my heart stops
I could listen to you talk about nothing all day

Your eyes, those eyes, they mirror mine
I like looking at yours far better, though
They searched me and didn't come up short
Because the words you said had me ready to go

Anywhere at anytime, any place but here
Somewhere far better it would be you and I
Because when I look at you I see nothing else
And I'm willing to bet I wouldn't bother to try

When I see you I light up so bright
A smile stretched from ear to ear
But I like yours far better than mine
I want that smile right now, right here