Random Feelings

My heart is broken, shielded pain
There goes our life, our everything
Right down to love and dreams and goals
You took my heart, you took it whole

So here I go in search of light
It's been a beautiful, painful fight
Loving you was not always easy
But always came so naturally

I'm lost in mind and soul and heart
Not sure where I'll go, who I'll be
Sometimes I feel we gave our best
Often times I hoped we were better than the rest

At times I wondered if you were truly mine
Part of me knew you wouldn't be in time
So now I'm left with questions to face
No answers to them, maybe it's fate

But loving you was never a mistake
You made a woman from a girl
Who can appreciate
All that you gave, all you took
You consumed my heart
Down to every nook

And now I have to take it back
Seeing this end for what it lacked
Still, I can't get over you and her
Right now 4 years is such a blur

(written: 21 October 2010)